One of my husband's healthcare providers (a social worker in one of his clinics) gave me a hug on Wednesday when I sorely needed one and told me that it was because I matter too.
It's nice to hear this once in awhile, she is a great person for always noticing me and what I'm feeling. Down is what I was feeling Wed, very down. Her attention helped.
His illness is all consuming. It has taken over every part of our life, my life. He wants people to see him for who he used to be and not who he has become so he lies. He talks to old high school friends and he lies. He has inappropriate conversations with other women and he lies.
I know I'm here day in and day out and he can't lie to me about his illness or it's severity so he seeks others who don't know and he tries to make himself feel like he used to because they don't know or understand that he is not at all who he used to be.
The latest instance was with a friend he had from high school, a woman of course. Some chatting got way out of hand in my opinion. I know and understand his illness and that impulse control is nearly zero for him. What I want to know is why she went along with it? She is supposedly in a relationship and happy and she KNOWS he is married, happy or not you don't go there with someone else's husband, not if you have any class that is. Maybe it's just me being pissed off, but I have spent the last 4 days writing a letter to let her know she has been played, and that I have caught her out and that I am NOT amused and wish her to just drop off the face of the earth.
Somehow not finding the nerve to push send right now. But I will, yep I am going to tell this woman to BACK OFF my husband, or maybe I'll offer to drop him and his dirty laundry and many problems off on her doorstep, that is if she really wants him so bad?
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Posts
No comments:
Post a Comment